A great deal of ambivalence in my life right now, and there shouldn’t be.
I am on the very of a capstone achievement in my education. My disseration is at long last finished; all 285 pages – which caused my committee quite a bit of discomfort at times. I have been told I have a lifetime of work ahead of me investigating or furthering this study. I’m happy, but not as much as I should be with this achievement.
I resigned from my job in December as it just wasn’t working out. I leave it at the end of June. I don’t have a job waiting for me, but I do have a few interviews lined up. I’m concerned about the job situation, but am dissatisfied with my career in many ways. I don’t see what I do making much of a difference. I guess it’s hard to be motivated when you know you’re on the way out.
I have a game I play too much as a hobby. Lately, it’s been more of a job managing events and dealing with personalities. It’s an OL game and no, I won’t tell you what it is. It used to be a lot of fun…not so much fun nowadays.
I see what is happening in the world of politics on a national level, and am not overly happy with it, but also, just don’t care anymore. What’s the point. No reason to be a spoil sport or to be a nervous Nellie. But mainly, I really don’t care too much about it anymore. At least for now.
I guess I can tell I’m bored to go back to blogging. I doubt I will stoke up enough motivation to care, and figure these posts will be rare and random. Who can tell. I know I can’t.
Just right now…things are so blase…that I don’t feel too much of anything.
Other than ambivalence.